like seriously full of shit (marbaby) wrote,
like seriously full of shit
marbaby

.19.days.

It's weird, you not trying to call or skype us. Or you not sending me e-mails at like 3am. I still keep thinking that "yeah, he'll call." But you won't. Ever again.

Our kid is okay. He's really clingy to me right now, which is to be expected. He keeps saying that I need to stick around longer than you did. It breaks my heart. I am all he's got now. I can't let him down. I'm so paranoid now about getting healthier, eating right, driving safer...everything.

Your brother sent me a copy of your death certificate. There was so much that was wrong with you, Ryan. Why didn't you take better care of yourself? YOU SHOULD HAVE TAKEN BETTER CARE OF YOURSELF. I'm still so angry that you're gone.

He misses you. Everything is okay, but it's not.

Where did you go?
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